I CANNOT DO THIS ANYMORE

IM SCARED AS HELL, . YES MY LOVE JOE IS HERE  BUT THIS IS KILLING HIM ALSO. I AM SO ANGRY I WANT TO SCREAM, CRY, ALL OF THAT BUT MOSTLY IM TIRED OF IT ALL. I WANT ME BACK ........WHERE HAVE I GONE, CSNT EVEN TYPE ANYMORE, MY ONLY CONNECTION TO MY FRIENDS AND I CANT DO IT, I JUST WANT TO SLEEP...........SORRY REALLY BAD BAD DAY AND I WANT IT TO END .............