Good morning everybody well, this is been a roller coaster of the week about 10 days ago my doctor sets me off the Alzheimer's meds, she did not want to mask any symptoms as I go for my third opinion on the 14th. Joe and I have both noticed that my memory is worse a lot faster than we thought. Without the medication. My memory is very bad he can't sign my dishes. What's, and what cabinet my balance is off. Joe helps me with my close it all seems to be happening so fast. I just turned 56 last week, and the prognosis is very poor for a person my age gel. I think you still in denial as he will not go or read any of the care provider books he has no idea where these in for.
I really am trying to live my day day day. However, our mates. You may never know how that beat Joe make Sherry takes me to get my hair done in many else.Joe is doing everything possible to help me, but I want my husband back. I don't want a nurse. East being very patient. I've been very mean, I think I'm trying to push away in that don't want to do this without him. I don't want to live. We have not told anybody in my family. The prognosis yet we figured that we would wait until my next appointment.On the 14th.
I keep asking myself why this is happening. Like I've said before, applicable to lupus all my life I excepted it. I don't what the flares that in the fire broke I dealt with it still did my chores still moved around. If I couldn't get up. I didn't get up in out, and the story I was born. The primary clot disorder intake. What then is, but that doesn't matter. They can still kill me at any time. Finally, when Intuit, found out I had diabetes. Okay, God didn't do this to me if I excepted all. I went to church. I kept my faith. I believed Satan had his little minions run around by me because I was getting closer to Jesus. My family doesn't understand. I have my church family was great and only it's the people that have, hurts, hangups and speed bumps in the own lives. I told themlast week I wasnot going to go anymore that it wasn't helped by the naturally, they talked me out of it. Joe goes with me at first to support me, but now he goes to get some support himself. Ladies, if I get asked you for anything. Please please please please go to Joe's room. It's called Joe's crew 2011@Facebook.com. He will listen to you Amazing to me. Actually, that with this technology. I can find so many loving genuine caringfriends on that thing called Facebook. I have listened to other stories, their pains, the joys their wishes and dreams. and we all have a common thread, we all believe in Jesus him. We all believe that we will be healed. From last week. I been doubting my faith.. I believe in God, I believe that he does not hurt us, but I also believe that sometimes the only time you can be healed is when Jesus takes you home to meet his father.
My dear friends, I guess what I'm trying to tell you is I have been hurt, abuse, deceived like to devastated ripped apart all my life since I was a child. It did not break me. It made me make some bad choices, but it did not break me. It made me stronger and I have to now promise to Joe and to all of you, as an example that I couldn't fight that Armstrong. I have overcome so much. I'm not afraid of dying. I know there's a better place for me. But as long as I'm yeah, I am going to fight this. I will not lay down. I will stand strong. I will be the beautiful angel that was in the pitches that were made on Facebook. God bless you, when you made my day.So ladies, let's think of off like I said, I'm older I don't have children to chase around. I can't work anymore. Some of you have to deal with this would don't little children and families in working but were all strong enough matter what affliction that we have. We will always be here foreach other. The time will come when I'm not actually able to post anymore, the Dragon will help spin a godsend from Joe to be evident talk. Instead, a type.
To sum it all up. Besides Joe, you while in my church family are all I have. I can't tell my son that I'm dying to tell him when I get the final diagnosis settlement meantime, I'll be here for you. Please share with me. Let's just live each day. I'm not a really tried in Ghana fight and honest step into that ring intake that last punch like my modality. God I love you all and thank you thank you thank you for supporting me supporting my blog and given me hope. It's
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