Well I've been told, that also I need to do is smile and everything will be all right. I know people mean well but it's not that easy to smile, I feel I don't have anything to smile about. I am blessed with a great husband and wonderful husband actually and a great friend that we own the house with.
I just laughed my celebrate recovery group as when I arrived on my geek in and another member were in the back room and later I found out that I had been upsetting the group that people leaving because they were feeling worse than when they came in I will readily admit the day I got my fourth opinion dating that I had five years to live I was upset I was crying and I wanted to share we have 5 min. to talk about a burning desire and I spent 15 well I decided then that these people and my church group are not my friends does no sympathy empathy or understanding. I feel really bad because I looked up to speed as my brother a fellow Christian and someone I counted on to in essence was talking to hammering back it tore me apart and it was the hardest decision AMA had made I love the people in that group and a pray for them every day I was told that I need to praise God more only God knows my heart I praise God from the time I will open my eyes and realize that I'm alive I praise him when I read my devotional I praise him when I go take my nap and I praise them every night at Grayson supper.
Now getting onto my lupus and fibromyalgia all of this stress is starting to make my pain from back make the swallowing inflammation in Phoebus come back it's not good for any rust you know that and stress brings down your immune system faster than anything else. I had decided to stop posting on our groups because I can be as positive right now as most of you are but that does not mean I do not love each and every one of you for being there for me and with the never Joe. The one that really need you right now is Joe you have his group he needs to hear from you he needs to know is not alone is Gloucester wife and best friend and I'm trying real hard to be that person but I can't. So please remember Joe always posting him keep on praying for him. Our roommate Craig is very important to us as audit books recommended by the Alzheimer's foundation is one is called a 36 hour day and I forget the name of the yellow one but they very informative and I can hopefully get you to read them I'm sorry this is going to be very short I'm actually going to go get sick to my stomach right now I love you all please don't forget me in remember Joe always. Anyone of you better long-suffering would be blessed to have a husband like Joe. Okay I need to go this is not a good day I love you all
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