MY SATURDAY OFF............

TODAY I DECIDED TO TAKE THE DAY OF FROM MY USUAL HUM DRUM DSAY. TODAY I AM GETTING READY TO SHOWER AND GO BACK TO BED. WE DO OUR SHOPPING ON SATS, THEN CHURCH ON SUNDSYS BUT THIS WEEKEND WE ARE SPENDING IT TOEGHTER AND WORKING IN THE YARD.
        NOW FOR MY SYMPTONS, I REALLY BELIEVE THE ARICEFT WAS MAKING ME SICK, AND NOT BEING ABLE TO EAT WAS MAKING ME WEAKER. NOW I DO NOT KNOW IF THIS IS A SYMPTON OF ALHEZMEIRS OR THE ARICEFT BUT I HAVE HAD 4 SEZIURES NOW. THREE OF THESE I WAS ALERT AND MY ARMS TREMBLED OUT OF CONTROL, I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST TREMORS BUT IF YOU HAVE TREMORS, WHEN YOU HOLD THE ARM OR WHATEVER IT WILL STOP THESE DONT AND LAST 2 OR 3 MINUTES. .LAST NIGHT I WAS SLEEPING AND APPARENTLY HAD A FULL SEZIURE, JOE SAID IT WAS MY WHOLE BODY, MY LEGS GOT STIFF BUT MY ARMS WERE TREMBLING AND FLAILING, HE HAD TO TRY TO WAKE ME, I FINALLY CAME OUT OF IT ,AGAIN IT LASTED A COUPLE OF MINUTES.NOW I STOPPED THE ARICEFT 4 DAYS AGO AND WENT BACK TO THE EXCELON PATCH, THIS IS HELPING MY GASTO TRACT, BUT I BELIEVE THE SEZIURES ARE FROM THE ARICEFT AND EHAT IS LEFT IN MY BODY. DOES ANYONE KNOW IF SEZIURES ARE PART OF ALHEZIMERS? I STILL HAVE THE SWALLOWING PROBLEM, HAVE HAD IT FOR A YR LIKE MOST OF THE SYMPTONS, BUT IT IS HETTING WORSE, BE IT LIQUID OR FOOD. I JUST HOPE I DO NOT CHOKE WHEN JOE IS NOT HOME, BUT ON THE 1 ST I WILL HAVE AN ALERT BUTTON, SO I WILL FEEL AT EASE.
        MY MEMORY IS STILL THE SAME, I FORGET RECENT HINGS, STILL TALK TO MYSELF, MY GAIT IS ALITTLE OFF OR STIFF, BUT I AM NOT GOING TO WORRY AS IT IS IN GOD'S HANDS, HE WILL HEAL ME OR CURE ME BUT EITHER WAY, JESUS WILL ALWAYS BE WITH ME NO MATTER WHAT. YESI HAVE HEARD, GOD IS PUNISHING YOU FOR YOUR PAST LOL YOU CAN TELL THE PEOPLE THAT SAY THIS DO NOT KNOW JESUS, OTHERWISE THEY WOULD KNOW, JESUS DIED FOR OUR SINS, GOD SENT HIS ONLY SON TO DEATH FOR OUR SINS, PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE. THIS DOES NOT MEAN GO SIN AND BE AN ASS AND YOU WIL BE FORGIVEN, IT MEANS IT WAS SUCH A GREAT SACRAFICE, THAT WE NEED TO HONOR IT AND TRY NOT TO SIN.
     WELL I AM HOPING TONIGHT TO BE ABLE TO HAVE A WONDEFUL NIGHT WITH JOE. I WANT TO BE HIS WIFE TONIGHT, CUDDLE AND WATCH A MOVIE, I AM PRAYING THAT I WILL HAVE NO ACCIDENTS TODAY AND TONIGHT MAYBE WE CASN HAVE SOME INTIMACY. THE PAIN GETS SO BAD, IT FRIGHTENS ME BEFORE IT EVEN STARTS. HE IS WONDERFUL TO ME AND I LOVE HIM SO MUCH, I AM TOO YOUNG TO GIVE UP THAT PART OF MY LIFE SO GOING TO REST AND RELAX TONIGHT AND TRY TO NOT FRET OF WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN.
             I PRAY THAT I DO NOT BORE YOU WITH THIS BLOG, IT IS HELPFUL FOR ME, WILL LET PEOPLE READ HOW MY ILLNESS PROGRESSES, AND MY FAMILY AND FRIENDSCAN LOOK BACK AT IT ONE DAY. TOMORROW I AM GOING TO TRY TO DO A VIDEO TO POST TO SASY HI TO YOU ALL AND LET YOU ALL KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ARE TRUELY LOVED, MY FAMILY, FRIENDS AND ALL OF YOU THE STRANGERS THAT I HAVE MET THAT HAVE CARED AND PRAYED FOR ME MORE THAN MOST OF MY SO CALLED CLOSE FRIENDS AND FAMILY............. OK GOING TO CRY SO THIS IS A GOOD PLACE TO END TODAY..........